Meringue Tower/Gingerbread Crossroads



Friday, November 19, 2004
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This will be my last blog for a long time.

So much has happened in the last few days. I do not know where to start neither do i feel that there is a need to start.

Sacrifices have been made. The best of both worlds is an impossibility most of the time and when one is made to make a choice between the uncomparable and unparallel, we shall believe that he never ever wished for it. It is unthinkable. It is almost inhumane. But when one makes a choice, he sticks to it. He shall not falter. He wishes for the best.

There is great relief too. I have been released from a burden that i thought would weigh me down for life. But at the same time, a new burden appears. One even trickier than the first. But for now, it is surreal. There is a calmness. It resembles the calmness that lies before a storm.

We have to be strong. For our friends. For our family. For our loves. You lament and curse and swear. The road remains rocky and winding. The future remains unknown and obscured. But you have seen light before, in glimpses. And that reminds you that you are capable of strength and happiness. Your life is capable of hope. With that thought, you go on stronger. You climb up after you fall. Some of us have it worse. Some of us have it simpler. But there are people around you who are willing to step out from their paths and push you along, drag you along, demand that you do not give up on life, ask that you be happy.

I thank Christine and Lihui for being there when i really needed someone. And god knows how that feels, holding a handphone and deciding who to call. I have never felt more afraid for myself. Or cried that much before.

I thank Jiabin and Huili for that gentleness and concern you have shown. Be it just how you call my name on the phone, be it how you give in to my whims, be it how you give an sms or ask me so genuine, "how are you".

I thank my family. There are debts which can never be repaid.

I have learnt so much. I have aged so much.
The future remains unknown and obscured.
But this time, i have hands to hold.

Zheng Yi

11/19/2004 06:08:00 PM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004
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Much has happened in the last few days. Things i will not write about as yet.
But i am good. And that's all you need to know.

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Lian He Zao Bao - 161104 on the new Chinese Education System.
Particularly liked the bit about letting more local teachers further their Chinese Studies.

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i've got a photosite. http://zhengyizheng.multiply.com
so stop saying i don't share my photos. and huili, i want my Changi Airport photos. NOW.

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S.H.E.'s Encore is a VERY satisfying album.

Godiva chocalate is STILL too expensive but it is without doubt, the best i've eaten. $3.90 for a single choc.

Popcorn is delicious.

Next up on my To Bake List : Christmas Stollen (i dunno how its spelt. but its sm Xmas bread)

And after that Creme Brulee and Carrot bread. But i need a torcher for e former. which just sounds more like a lethal weapon than a baking utensil.

Jay's concert countdown. 1 week and 3 days. No recall no recall no recall puhleezeeeeeeee.

The story of Wu Ze Tian ( the first Female Ruler of China ) is intriguing.

My loyal 3150 (or whatever u call that brick of a phone i carry) is failing me. I am forced to consider getting another phone.

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Not in e blogging mood. U might have realised. another day perhaps. >:)




11/16/2004 10:30:00 PM