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Wednesday, February 04, 2004

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I've decided , recently, to renew mi hope in movies to exhilarate, touch and inspire me. Yes, mainly because of Nicholas Nickleby.
No, it is not that good.
But i still loved it. Loved it so much that i sat through it again. 2 times in 4 days. Trust me, it didn't deserve that generous an attendance(i'm really not a frequent movie-goer).
But c'mon it's just a movie, i shouldn't need to keep evaluating if i really really do like it. If i think i do , i do. Right? Right.
So i keep recommending it to my frens. haha. I really dun love it that much. Not enough to put me at e mercy of complaints fm dissatisfied audience and def. not enough to defend it when i'm attacked by "not so nice wat"s. So dun watch it if u dun want lor.

But it's quite rich in mi opinion with very fine acting to string rather quick changing scenes and to compensate a rather fragile plot. But there's alot of "goodness" in e show. Charlie Hunnam is really charming. For once, i actually allow myself to like e all-good, noble, unbelievably (unrealistically) kind protagonist of a rather typical 'good triumph over evil' plot. He is Nicholas, u prob guessed. He has a rather weird accent, weird articulation, rather NORMAL acting (ok abit below avg) and looks that dun realli fit into e entire show (he seems like a foreigner that decided to pop by Victorian England) BUT somehow he was a major factor in making me believe that goodness. It's hard to explain. I felt somehow that there might exist this sorta goodness in life. Where there is really story-like, celestial (or some other force) bias for goodness. I think its very likely that it's cos i've lost touch wif happier stories (or at least those that aren't expressed in comedy or intentional depth). I actually had a brief but very strong admiration for his character. Like how kids idolise heroes in fairytales and fantasies. I think that's why this movie moved me.

Jamie Bell was impressive. brilliant acting. And i def. like e character Smike most, out of pity and very unexplained empathy too. Dun ask me how or why. The bond between Smike and Nicholas leaves me undeniably shaken. Yes. Shaken. I felt for a moment, before cynicism struck, a wish to be given e same hope Nicholas granted Smike with. That very singular dependance that can not be shamed nor mocked, one that i envy. E kind of salvation that noone would be in need of yet i crave for. A possibility that all e light in world can lie in a single person, another that is similarly made of flesh and blood. The possibility that hope could come so simply.

All in all, it was a fantastic experience. Watching evil crumble; though expected but still I cheer in my heart.

2/04/2004 09:56:00 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

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Yay! Tekong duty for me again!
remember e time i was superduper free?
yes that was e "Tekong" days!
so i'm basically free fm Tue to Thurs which means ...*thoughtful look* i'm gonna seriously grow FAT. *maniacal smile*

Oh i reali quite love Tekong duty. it's even better now.
I get a REAL toilet. With concrete floors and good ol' toilet bowls. AND MIRRORS. No flies even! ( i cannot love modern life more for its gifts of hygiene )
And i get a PROPER bathing place!

But i din bathe for e 3 day duty.

Anyway.

E best part abt it now is that i have e ENTIRE cabin to myself!
I sleep alone in e smelly cabin. It was smelly before already so i have no complaints. But there are certain roomies that i dun realli welcome, Mr Rodent and hopefully he din bring his family along. *cross my fingers so hard they snap*
Yep there are rats. I thot i heard some. " They hide in e ceiling space in e morn and come out at night for adventure, " my fren claimed.
But still i love e solitude. Man, i am so relieved. I simply detest conversation-making and doing all those really mild socialising with e tekong crew. Those that ppl use when they need to get past only a few days with these grp of strangers?

Dun like it. So now i'm jus happily in my room. DND. and noone realli comes knocking at mi door. I sing, i smile, i read , i tok 2 miself and i lie ard wif my eyes open. U know wat a luxury it is to lie ard wif ur eyes open? So many ppl give u e look when u do that. It's annoying. They hover on top with their curiosity dripping fm their noses. "Buzz off" i say. And if they happen to be bunk mates, they'll always say " Are u ok? " , " U broke up wif ur gf ar? "
~~~oh brainy few, jus LEAVE ME ALONE~~~

So i wrote a quote in this exercise book we use to hand down duty updates.

" Solitude ROCKS because you do need a ahem-ing reason to NOT socialise, u jus don't. And you're not a loner then, you're just alone. "

And e room's nice tho smelly. Veri spacious with a safari bed (sth like a stretcher) that has a mattress on it. The bed is right smack centre, two windows at the side, with one u see e antenna farm with a tekong sky background. And tekong skies r always jus pretty cool. And that window has climbers over it, adding a bit of green to all e dullness of the room. And of cos ALOT of dirt and dust and dried mud but i still like e place. With a good book (or a few good books), good music and a hermit's peace, the place does give u all u need.

2/03/2004 01:07:00 PM

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