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Saturday, October 16, 2004
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For the past 2 weeks i've been having cold feet (and cold hands as well) over my driving test. And just to illustrate how badly hit i was by the 'driving jitters' : I was halfway thru my mamamia performance, enjoying the songs and dances, and without warning, flashfronts (new word!) of my driving test invaded my mind and i was most unpleasantly disturbed. AND jus yesterday (this morn in fact) i woke up at 3am and started to get this numbness in my wrists and weakness in my feet, i was HORRIFIED. i remember thinking : "holy shit, my legs are jelly. i'm def. gonna fail. " For 2 weeks, whenever the thought of being put to the test, having to hold out 30 min of flawless (ok maybe no major flaws is sufficient) driving and having to go through the heartbreak of drawing cash from ATM machines if i do fail, came along, i will be terror-stricken and be very distracted from whatever i was doing.
It's ten times worse than the stress i get from all my school tests put together. I think i almost had a zhengyi sort of nervous breakdown. And i have no idea why specifically. Its not ALL abt e money. (actually i think it is. bah.) But the thought of having to perform consistently throughout the 30 min was really tormenting cos there are always minor hiccups here n there, which i feel are unavoidable.
i am blessed.
I passed my test today at 12:20pm.
Gosh. And i just before that i was showing my dad how bloody cold my hands were and he was teasing me for being wimpy. (thanks dad anyway for driving me to BBDC! ) pop's a dear. he kept telling me in his TYPICAL i-know-all tone : " IF u pass that's good. If u fail it's good too! So why do u worry? It's not like u'll lose an arm or sth. " My old man rocks. Not like my lousy mom, go mahjong n never even wish me good luck. boo.
My strategy (one i figured out the prev. day when i couldn't bear e stress anymore) was to sing. Cos i get irregular breathing once i think of the test, so singing helps me to control it. And what song? haha S.H.E.'S " SUPERSTAR ".
Its such a destressing song. haha. I know i sound terribly ditsy. but hey, whatever dat goes man. So lucky i got to go into e car w/o the tester first, so i could prep talk myself and do the chorus for Superstar. Haha. Basically i just gave myself a triple egobooster injection which makes me think i can do anything. But my hands were sweating really badly still.
And man i am blessed. The road condition was perfect. No threatening-to-turn-amber green lights, no vehicle deciding to stop at e roadside all of a sudden, taxis at roadsides were clearly either gonna stay for awhile or move off in a second so i knew whether i had to overtake, first car for U-turn, no naughty pedastrians and no road hogs. The tester was damned good. Clear instructions, skipped slope,e-brake and S-course and even hinted me when i should change to 4th gear.
When he left circuit early i was thinking, shit, either he's gonna fail me fast or pass me quick. So i was thinking the latter at first cos i thot i did pretty well inside. But when i stoned for a Red Light Green Arrow, i thot i was a goner. And the first thing he said to me in the tester's room was
" Your first time ar? Why vehicle insurance never give me jus now. "
and followed by
" How many hours have u driven before? "
where i cleverly (as suggested by my instructor) brought up e fact dat i had a military class 3,4 license and drove quite a bit inside( e not-so-true heh ).
And so he passed me with 10 dp. My saviour.
the 3 main reasons y i passed :
1) I wore a big red t-shirt (its supposed to be real lucky esp. for driving students)
2) S.H.E. - serious! they really purged me of all the weakness in my mind! (dun mock)
3) Guan Yin Niang Niang and my granny - prayed to them for e last few days for peace of mind
the 3 ppl i really wanna thank :
1) meiling, lauren - for trying to help me destress
2) my dad for being a great comfort
3) my instructor Foo - i know it's terribly hyprocritical of me but i thought i saw a halo over his head when he came over to congratulate me. haha.
And that's that. No more driving lessons. No more disputes. No more Chway. No more Foo. No more headache and weak limbs. MORE money.
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But i have been enjoying an extraordinary streak of luck these days. Okay not really 'luck' but jus life being very kind to me.
1) i passed driving
2) lihui (oh my darling lihui!) helped me get an autograph from SLY! hahaha. BEAT
THAT!
3) Jerry Ong's out fm SG Idol ( i was jus telling jj yesterday when i heard e
results : " I can't believe it. He's out. I might pass my driving man. "
4) I found magnetic earrings! (dun ask not telling policy.)
5) Oh and creative gave me a replacement for my wonky mp3 player. CAN U BELIEVE IT?
its like getting a new mp3 player. haha. The salesgirl asked : " do u mind if
it's a diff color? " OF COURSE NOT! haha big companies and warranties rock. Its
nice and new and grey-white now. tsk tsk. chio. new stock somemore. *grinning fm
ear to ear*
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Yay in celebration :
1) I rented another lousy taiwanese ou xiang ju!
2) I'm gonna get 2 tubs of HD icecream for my family.
3) I'm gonna go for a good meal tomorrow and 2046.
(anyway i think 2046 is a cool show. heck if its pretentious or not, imagine. Jia
Ling, Zi Yi, Gong Li, Man Yu , Faye ,Tony and Kimura ! its like seriously STAR-
STUDDED. gorgeous ppl. dat's all u need in a movie.)
4) gonna treat 3 of my campmates , jeron and myself to something (dunno wat yet. ooh
wait. i get a double treat den. how generous of me. *strikes up a conversation w
oneself* "awww...u dun have to really." "no i MUST!"
5) i shall get my last 2 tori albums.
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i'm thinking if i should choose beijing university instead.
arp.
:)
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i think people are silly when they take leisure activities seriously.
and that includes gossip, rumor-mongering and tv programmes.
Liven up ppl!
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