Monday, June 21, 2004 0 comments Post a Comment Yesterday we were having our Father's Day dinner and my brother had his girlfriend, Jaslyn come over. I was having my evening nap (hoping i could sleep away this dratted illness) and when i woke up, i sort of sleepily made my way to the dining area for dinner. And outside the room was the washroom and my brother was bathing inside, and jaslyn was standing out there with the sorriest and most dejected expression i've ever seen on her face. And upon seeing me, her usual cheery " Hello! " and sweet-as-honey expression was replaced by a weak " Hello." and sad eyes dat didn't even meet mine when she greeted me. At that very moment, i thought : Will i be able to keep up with all these? Will i be able to survive all these seemingly endless turbulences in a relationship? The little joys and sorrows , the tiffs and teases, can i take them? Knowing how i always magnify the smallest things and allow them to wound me or exhilarate me, can my heart take the hyperaction? My heart has been shut out all the while, it's almost scary to think one day i might open it up, and even scarier to realise that it might be forced to shut again. Never let the caged bird see the sky, then it wouldn't ever know what it'll be like to fly. But let it out and cage it back in and see what happens. No it's not oh-cynical-zhengyi with his ' better not to try den try and fail ' philosophy , i always believe in trying out stuff, but matters of the heart...hmm. I might even be a penguin. Which jus means i'll never fly but oh well. who knows. But well, at the dining table, they sorta made up. I helped a bit by asking him to get her a potato. Which jus proves my point of how volatile relationships are, constantly sucking its 'victims' into the darkest hole and then pushing them all the way to the top of the sky. Not meant for the aged. I mean the aged mind of cos. Well, we'll see. Now i'm better off not sitting ard hoping to find some1 but to make my life revolve ard myself and letting "ME" be a good enough reason for me to be happy and feel fulfilled. *** Guess wat? I KNEW sth was up when paul and lau called up yesterday (refer to prev. blog) and sure enough ( I KNEW IT I KNEW IT! ), my doorbell rang at 5pm (i was jus deciding to take my evening nap... hehe not that i didn't ENJOY their COMPANY. lol~) And there were the two of them standing out there, at my front door (with ah zhao's help at directions) looking realli amused with themselves, haha. hilarious ppl. and they REALLY got cakes from SUN MOULIN! I've got the BEST friends i tell u. I jus casually mentioned it as a joke in my sms for paul cos he was asking if i wanted them to come. I said 'yeah, bring a fruit baskets and cakes from Sun if u do. ' and VOILA. i should do that every weekend. $10+ worth of yummy cakes. My family took the lot cos well, i was having runny bowels. ( haha , runny bowels sound funny, i'll use them more often) They loved it. (THANKS AGAIN GUYS.) first time i ever got visited by frens when i'm sick (tho lau thinks i'm jus pretending cos i dun look sick). it's jus hilarious. *** arg, i'm REALLY quite sick now. not that i wasn't yesterday. but i conclude i've got GASTRIC FLU (e runny bowels explain it all) n i opted out for my parade rehearsal tml. funny how most ppl will love that but i'm terribly irritated that i can't go cos i actually enjoy rehearsals. (dele calls me a loser for that and refuses to acknowledge me animore) *grumble* i hope i'm well for thursday's full dressed rehearsal no.2. 6/21/2004 10:18:00 PM

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